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Name: am-yam
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

I will continue to be brave...knowing that i won't get what i want...life was never fair to begin with...and will never be fair....


Wednesday, January 11, 2006

To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return.  To just give.  That takes courage, beacuse we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt.

This is so true...and maybe right now...I'm being brave...


Sunday, January 08, 2006

Listen to my heart or follow my hapiness?

My heart's captured here, my hapiness belongs there.   My hapiness lies there as i can truly be free and do things I want to do.  I've always wanted to experience independance and I've always wanted to be the free-spirited girl that I wish I was.  I could probably be one....free of problems and live life the way it's supposed to be.  However here, there are things that I don't think I can ever let go of...mainly my friends...and...him.  Each one of my friends hold a part of me and leaving them would probably cause me an emotional breakdown...as if that hasn't happened already....

I'm afraid, afraid of making the wrong decision...either way...I think there will be consequences, let downs, regrets, and sacrifices.
I can't take this anymore...I wish someone would come into my life and guide me...tell what I should do...bring the hapiness back to me....I wish there was someone right next to me...who would take me out of the darkness.....

I feel so empty....bound by endless decisions and problems...if only the time would stop...even better...if I could go back in time and change the past....or preview the future...so I know what to expect....

I just don't know what to expect anymore...I'm truly lost....

* I wish for a miracle*



Saturday, January 07, 2006

My first blog of the new year...

What can i say?   Well, 7 dayz into 2006 and it seems that many problems have arised already.  It seems that everyone is either worried or stressed out.  How will we all survive the year if it's already like this?

As for me, nothing's really changed.  I don't feel any older and my surroundings aren't really different either.  First week back at school, and i'm already under so much stress and I have piles of endless homework already.  As for everything else, I really don't see a point anymore.  Decision making is hard, and one piece of advice: once a decision is made, do not try to take it back  There's really no point.  It's so depressing, seeing everyone around me suffering from decision making.  I guess I should be making a important live-changing decisions also.  Like whether or not to go back to Sydney for university.  I figured that it would be better to take gr 12 there too.  But everyone's told me otherwise.  Most of them has said that it's a waste of time.  And now i'm confused.

*sigh* - No matter what my decision, something will be sacrificed.  One of my good friends told me the other day that no matter what decision I make, all my friends will be there to support me.  It's true right?

Well I hope so...however I can say that not many people will truly be able to "Love and understand me".


Saturday, December 24, 2005

this song really suits me...
i might be lost...and i'm not sure where i'm headed...

Memories of Life - FF IX

Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark,
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart.
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain,
Melodies of lief - love's lost refrain.

Our paths they did cross, though I cann't say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.

In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me.
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name.

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of Life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds - forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by.
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky.
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings.
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.

In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us closer and now leaves me behind?

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine.
Adding up the layers of harmony.
And so it goes, on and on.
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying bird - forever and on.

If I should leave this lonely world behind,
Your voice will still remember our melody.
Now I know we'll carry on.
Melodies of Life,
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts, as long as we remember.




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